"If this is love...someone please tell me so."

I have been evaluating my life a bit the past couple of weeks. These are things I have had on my mind, being kicked out of my major and deciding what path to take next, who my true friends are and if they are helping me be the best person I can be, if the decisions I am making in my dating life are the right ones, whether moving home for the summer or staying in Logan all summer is a good decision. Also, as of the past couple days, who the idiot in the dog costume is and if he will regret the ice cream he threw in my hair when I file an assault charge against him.
I will start with the whole 'dating scene'. I don't understand how I have dated/gone on dates with 30+ men this school year and yet I still haven't found a guy that I can date for more than two weeks! I feel like there has to be something wrong with me. Especially since I found a great guy, granted he had some problems, and I still couldn't bring myself to date him. I've never ever felt that 'spark' with a person before, and I am starting to doubt that I ever will. (no this is not a pity post, I am just writing my feelings). I may be a little picky. But I don't feel that its too much to ask for a man who is chivalrous, a gentleman, holds the priesthood, and respects me and stands for the same values as myself. Granted I also need a man that is capable of protecting me, and being there for me. So, while this is going to be the hardest thing in the world for me to do, this summer I am going to quit dating. I feel like half of my problem is that I am not finding "joy in the journey" and that I am worrying too much on who and when. Which I really shouldn't worry about at all, except for with all my friends getting married it scared me that it will never happen to me. I just need to be living my life and having fun, because it truly is a blessing to be experiencing the things I am experiencing at this time in my life. I also feel that I need to better myself and be the person that I want to be before I can love someone else for the best person that they can be and are. I am thoroughly excited to take this summer be with my family and find myself again, who I am and what I want out of life again.
The jury is still out on everything else on the list...but hopefully I will find some answers soon, or I may go crazy.