I was born in the wrong era

I love the 60's. I especially love this song. I am a strong independent woman and I don't need a man to control me, nor will I put up with a man trying to control me (in any shape or form).

"Heartache Healer, Secret Keeper be my Best Friend"

(I do not mean to offend anyone by what I say, we all take our own road, but this is my blog and my personal views and beliefs.)
Sometimes life doesn't always work out the way we expect it to. Sometimes we dream of things our whole lives, but they never happen. We have to adjust and change to be the best person we can, with what is thrown our way. No one is perfect, but we all have to try our best. Sometimes we struggle and feel there is no one there to help us. But there ALWAYS is and there ALWAYS will be, we just have to be willing to seek Him. I truly love this song and cry everytime I listen to it.
This weekend I had an interesting experience. I was able to attend two weddings, one an outdoor wedding and one married in the temple. The differences from the two atmospheres were phenominal. You would think that the feeling would be the same as two different couples join together in marriage, but it was not. Friday night as I left wedding number one I vowed to myself that I would never get married anywhere besides the temple. I thought about this as I attended wedding number two and everything seemed happier. Then as I was almost in a car accident I realized not only do I have to vow that I have to live it. I have to actively engage myself in the gospel to get where I want to be. I feel as though as of late I have just been floating through life, not actively pursuing anything, just hoping things will work out. But nothing is just going to come to me I have to go out and get it.
This year as I have delved more into my studies in school I have realized that why I have been just floating is that I have not been passionate about the things I have been doing. I am passionate about my classes therefore I study and do my homework and my readings. I have just had to renew my passion for the gospel and the scriptures and continue to work and it and be converted. Because as I learned in sacrament you have to work at being converted your entire life, constantly building your testimony. So that you can gradually transform from a caterpillar to a beautiful butterfly. So my new goal is to start my transformation and continue to be converted. So, that I will have oil for my lamp and be ready for the arrival of the Bridegroom.

What's Right For Me?

So lately I have been thinking very strongly about going to BYU-HAWAII, or going to work at Disney world for a semester or studying abroad a semester, or teaching children English in another country, or helping at an orphanage for a summer. I don't really know which of these sticks out to me the most, except I wish I could do them all (If only I had money :( which I don't). But I truly feel a need to go somewhere and do something, to make some sort of change and better someones life somehow. I went to a show by Sweet Honey in the Rock (check them out here!) and I just have had this feeling that I haven't been able to shake that there is something greater out there that I can be doing to evoke a change in the world, or even just a change in myself. I am truly happy with myself and who I am but people always need to learn new things and to be thrown into new cultures. I absolutely love learning about new cultures and the way other people do things. Maybe to evoke a change I wouldn't have to do something as big as I have mentioned, but Go Big or Go Home, and I don't want to go home. I want to experience the world, and maybe find a attractive male along the way to accompany me to the end.

My New Theme Song

I will no longer be catering to others and trying to make others happy. I make me happy, and I change for no one. If you don't like it get lost. :) Therefore I have decided this is my new theme song.