Oh What To Do...

I'm nervous, and scared.
I don't know what to do.
I know exactly what I want.
I know that it could make me eternally happy.
But am I really prepared for such?
I also can't bring myself to admit it...
Out Loud.
So what's keeping me from jumping off this cliff?
The fact that its a 50 foot drop,
And last time I hit the ground...
There is also the part of me that doubts,
What if this is all in my mind?
I mean after all I am a girl...
A typical girl who over thinks everything!
I feel like I have been down this road
So many times before.
But something tells me this time is different.
What is different,
I have no idea.
But maybe....one day
I will figure it out.
Because right now, I just don't know what to do...