Where shall I go?

In less than 6 months I will be 22 years old. What do I have to show for this age? Not much. I haven't done anything major in my life. In exactly 5 days it will be the first time I have ever left the state without my parents. I don't feel like I have crossed over into "adulthood" I feel that in the next year a lot of things in my life will change. I will be done with college, I will make a large move and go where my heart takes me, finding a job a place of residence and a new start. I am rather excited for the path my life will take within the next year. I know that the path may change and become something I didn't expect. But I am so ready for something new. Something that takes me away from the average.....

B-E-A-Utiful...

"I wanna be blown away, I wanna be swept off my feet. I wanna be the one who makes it hard to breath, I wanna be lost in love. I wanna be a dream come true, I wanna be scare of how strong I feel for you."

I am a hopeless romantic...yes.

mmmmhmm.

"My eyes were closed and his mouth tasted like marzipan flowers and clove cigarettes, and in ten seconds the whole of my life was wrapped up in that one kiss, that one wish, that one secret that would forever divide my life into two parts."

—Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

Doesn't that sound absolutely wonderful?!

Once Upon A Time...

I fell IN LOVE with a film....
Its just epically amazing in every sense
when it comes to the way men should be!
This is a exert from said film...

Elise: “Invite me to dinner Frank.”

Frank: “What?”

After a pause Frank again: “Would you like to have dinner?”

Elise: “Women don’t like questions”

Frank: “Join me for dinner

Elise: “Too demanding.”

Frank: “Join me for dinner.”

Elise: “Another question”

Frank: “I’m having dinner, if you’d care to join me.”

Also there are many other lines from the film that are simply amazing.
I truly love it, and love watching it repeatedly!
I also think that Johnny Deep and Angelina Jolie work together magically :)

I Fall

I fall for men. Men with a small town, gentlemanly charm. Rugged men, with dark hair and a little scruff. Men who are have strong, protective arms. Men who like the outdoors, hunting and fishing. Men who open my door. Men who are actually men and take charge. Men who take the church seriously. Men who know how to laugh. And last but not least men who work hard and play harder :) I want another man like this...

Theme of my life?

This is my theme song...
Question Existing by Rhianna

and here are the lyrics...

Take off my shirt.
Loosen the buttons and undo my skirt,
Stare at myself in the mirror
Take me apart piece by piece,
Sorrow decrease
Pressure release, I put in work
Did more than called upon, More than deserved
When it was over, Did I wind up hurt (Yes)?
But it taught me before a decision ask this question first

[Chorus:]
Who am I living for?
Is this my limit?
Can I endure some more?
Chances are given, Question Existing
Who am I living for?
Is this my limit?
Can I endure some more?
Chances are given, Question Existing

Take off my coat,
show them that under here,
I'm just like you do the mistakes,
I may make me a fool or a human with flaws,
admit that I'm loss
Round of applause,
Take the abuse
Sometimes it feels like they want me to lose
It's entertainment is that an excuse? (No)
But the question that lingers whether "win or lose"

[Chorus]

Dear Diary,
It's Robyn
Entertaining is something I do for a living
It's not who I am, I'd like to think that I'm pretty normal,
I laugh, I get mad, I hurt, I think
Guys suck sometimes,
But when you're in the spotlight,
Everything seems good,
Sometimes I feel like i have it worst cause I have to always keep my guard up,
I don't know who to trust, I don't know who wants to date me for who I am,
Or who wants to be my friend for who I really am,

[Chorus]

also, I am still not sure how to post actual videos to my blog so if anyone wants to help me out with that...that would be great! :)

Oh hidden blessings, how I love thee.

First I have to say I feel that Heavenly Father is always there for me. It's amazing the little things that somehow make everything kind of click? Through going to work tonight and having a very deep conversation with a co-worker I have made a decision that will most likely change my life for the best. It will help me alter the person I have become into the person I want to be. I feel that it will help me trust and find a suitable man. Well at least I am hoping...the hard part is actually going through with it. It's scary, and I always feel like people will judge me. ha I guess that comes from always being judged by others around me. But I think this will really help me just be ok with everything in life, and relax.

huh.

ha ha. have you ever been through those experiences of not knowing what to choose or what to do and later in life you realize what you wanted all along was right in front of you? It's funny how that happens sometimes. Something you never expected can sometimes be the best thing for you. It's definitely interesting.

BLISSters....

What a wonderful weekend I was able to spend with my family! I love the fourth of July and BBQ's and just relaxin. I was not looking forward to coming back to Logan, as I came back to take a horrible math test! But alas, it is over and I sewed a pencil skirt last night! Its quite cute but still needs a few finishing touches. Sewing the skirt was kind of my creative outlet since I have been way stressed about stupid little things as of late. I am not sure why but I am just kind of on edge lately. Maybe it's because my life is lacking the organization I like to have. Or maybe it's cuz I really miss my best friend, already. ha. I don't really know what it is, but I am ready to get out of this funk. Lately I have gotten the feeling that I need to take my story on the road and move some where else. But that scares me more than staying here does. I figure that when I am done next May-ish I will have to make the decision about where to start my adult life at. on another note... I am so looking forward to going to Cali with 3 of my greatest friends!

P.S. The title story...Went on a walk with the parentals on Sunday wore the wrong footwear and suffered blisters for the next few days...today at work burned myself with the steamer and now have a blister on my finger....