Shaz Monkeys

"I really do think you look beautiful. You have a great smile and a personality that makes my day go great no matter what."
As flattering as the above statement is...I am still not interested. And as I struggled to find something to respond with, I realize I have told you this and you know I am interested in someone else and yet you still try to win me over? I don't understand it, and I quite possibly never will. If I like someone who tells me they aren't interested I move on and forget about them...It's that simple. Which brings me to another point, once you have told me that you can't come back and say you wanna date me when you have realized how amazing I am, cuz I am already long over you. Yes, this does happen quite often and while I used to appease the other party and give a second chance I no longer do this, cuz there was a reason things didn't work out in the first place. In my life a man can flatter me till he is blue in the face and if I am not interested in him or over him it will get him no where.
Onto another similar topic, I really do have commitment issues and when a guy starts to mention things that equal seriousness I tend to push away. " oh yeah ****** told me the story about your dog stalker at family dinner tonight"...."wait in front of your entire family??!!?" "Yeah, it was so funny, my dad started to ask who you were and stuff"...."so your entire family?!" almost like that interest lost. Granted I am still somewhat interested but more leery and far more flighty. Especially when things like that seem to creep up in such a short time of us "hanging out".
So once again, I have backed myself into the corner, where I can continue with the flow of things or run. I feel like running. Even though I feel like running is the wrong decision, its the only decision that will keep me from getting hurt. So here comes another "break time" we will see how long this lasts....

Reconstruction of faith

So I love reading other peoples blogs but my absolute favorite blog to read is... Lime Green Movie Girl. It is absolutely hilarious and I feel that they always seem to have some parallel with my own life. I particularly love this post. I have been receiving a little criticism from those closest to me as of late that I am far too picky. But, dang it! I am not gonna spend eternity with just anyone! I don't want to marry a man that I am going to have to "put up with" for the rest of my life, I want a man I enjoy spending time with and talking to.
I also may be very blunt and tell a man exactly what I am thinking, I don't care if it offends them that I tell them they act like a girl, I am the girl in the relationship and there should only be one. If what I have to say offends a man, then he should definitely find a new girl to date because we won't get along very much longer.
On a different note, I am very pleased to announce there are good guys in the world! Good guys that are cute and caring. Guys that can be complete gentlemen acknowledge you have a voice for yourself and carry on conversations for long periods of time. Men that walk you home even though its a mere 100 yards away. My faith in the male species is slowly being rebuilt, brick upon brick. I find it a little easier to trust each day, but not enough that I am willing to allow anyone in.

My Blessings

Saturday Morning Jeffery R Holland I think this was my favorite talk from conference, because it helped me realize that sometimes it doesn't always take a large act to help someone and make their life better. It also helped me want to be a better person always giving my time to service and helping others, not focusing on myself all the time. I also realized through listening to confrence and the days after that I am so blessed to have so many amazing people in my life that care for me so much and for all the amazing things they do for me :) Thank you all.

Soundtrack of my life (currently)

These are not necessarily in order from my most favorite to my least favorite
1 Joe Brooks- "Superman"
2 Bruno Mars- "Just the Way You Are"
3 The Script- "I'm Yours"
4 Mindy Gledhill- "All About Your Heart"
5 Ne-Yo- "Never Knew I Needed" also my favorite movie :)
6 Sara Bariellis- "King of Anything"
7 Avril Lavigne- "Alice"
8 Easton Corbin-"The Way Love Looks"
9 SheDAISY- "Get Over Yourself"
10 He is We- "I Wouldn't Mind"
11 He is We- "Happily Ever After"
12 Julia Sheer cover- "Mine"
13 Julia Sheer Cover- "Ridin' Solo" Ridin' Solo by choice and lovin' it :)
14 Cherie Call- It Passes All My Understanding But I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that its true.