Ok Confession!

I am a total Bachelorette groupie. I love to watch it! But really what woman doesn't wanna look at 25 fine men every week? Yeah. That's what I thought. So anyways on to my parallel life with the bachelorette.....Bentley, need I say more?! He is from Utah...a home grown Utah boy. He also is a lying, scheming, jerk of a man who sums up exactly how every other Utah man is. point proven, my commercial is over and I am back to watching it on hulu! :)

Reliance on the Integrity, Strength, and/or Ability of a person.

Trust. Something that at times should be so easy, but is so very difficult. After being hurt and lied to so many times from so many different men, its hard to trust. Its hard to put my heart out there on the line, when the only thing I know is hurt and pain. So how do I overcome that? Will I ever find someone willing to work with me on that? Because it takes a lot for me to trust a person. A whole lot. I feel like deceiving men have ruined me from having a stable relationship. I guess that's the reason why I am so honest, about everything in my life and the way I feel. I just want the same treatment. When a man tells me something my mind automatically jumps to assume that I am being deceived, that he is out with another girl, dating someone else, not ready to settle down, etc. etc. etc. But not all men are like that! Why is that so hard for me to get through my mind?! Why can't I trust like I did two years ago? Because how can I ever expect to let a man in when I can't learn to trust...

The prayer of my heart.

I have faith in many things. But when it comes to men my faith diminishes, and actually may have been completely non-existent. That has never stopped me from praying daily that I would find a man who treats me right, one who honors and respects me. But honestly, I never thought that it would happen. I know that sounds ridiculous, but I had absolutely no faith in the opposite sex, I have the faith in Heavenly Father and knew down deep that some how He would just make things work. But I honestly had no faith that I would ever live my fairy tale. I am still not so sure I ever will. But I have so very much more faith in the male species. I just figured out I shouldn't date a man from Utah. I need to date a man who was raised else where and is only transplanted here. Now, there has been one exception in my life with an out-of-state man, where he was a complete jerk...but that's another story. Ok....now is where I keep my mouth shut for fear of revealing too much but say, I have met a man who defies everything I have ever know about men and treats me different than any other man before him. and yep. that's all you get. ha ha.

Amazing.

It is people such as this father, and this mother who make me want to be a better person. To make me want to be an amazing parent one day, who no matter what will do anything for my children. Who will teach them of Christ and the love He has for them. I am so thankful for the amazing people like this there are in the world. For the amazing example they are. They set the bar that I am striving to reach and even surpass. I would be ever so grateful if I ever am able to be an amazing parent such as these two amazing people.
Also, I love this gospel for the peace and the strength that it brings unto me. For the knowledge that I ALWAYS have someone to turn to, no matter what I am going through. I also am grateful for peaceful music and for the spirit that it brings unto me. especially this song. Mindy Gledhill just has an amazing voice and some amazing lyrics.